Can anyone tell me whether or not having dreams about being d is normal?

Okay, I feel like a perverted freak explaining this but I can't stand the confusion any longer. For about five years (since my early teens) I've had this recurring dream about being brutally gang d. What bothers me most is that I think that I'm every time I have this violent dream and I don't know why. I've never had a boyfriend before. In fact, I try to avoid boys as much as possible. (I'm extremely shy around the opposite ) Others I've asked say that it's a "hormonal imbalance." But I really don't know what that's supposed to mean. Do these violent dreams mean that I sub-consciously want to be gang d? (I've never been d before and I've heard how horrible and devastating it is to the victim so why do I want it to happen to me?)